One film festival doesn’t define me.
Which is why it’s easy to get over not getting into a huge festival like Sundance.
However, a film can define a filmmaker. Which is why I’ve been on pins and needles since I began the submission process for my film, Beggar Girl. There is no way of knowing the who, what, and where of getting accepted to a festival.
Beggar Girl is not a lighthearted comedy. She is political. She is controversial. She doesn’t spoon-feed the audience. She challenges them. Goes against conventional thought. Maybe even makes some people mad, with what she has to say.
As proud as I am, I think my film is smarter than I am, and I like that about her.
But that makes waiting to hear from film festival programmers especially nerve-wracking.
The fruits of the creativity and efforts of so many talented and passionate people, she’s beautiful and strong. She can’t wait to find her audience and show off all their work.
But when you send your unique child, who doesn’t sit quietly in the corner, off into the world, you have no idea how the world is going to respond. And you hope that one teacher, one friend, one coach, one person at least, will understand their unique qualities. That one person will appreciate the things about them that others might not see.
And until that happens, you continue to take deep breaths as necessary, and believe that no matter how the others respond, your child will be okay.
I am excited to announce, my baby, our baby (for all those who helped bring her to life) has received her first acceptance, in what is hopefully just the beginning of her journey.
Beggar Girl will screen at the Garden State Film Festival in Atlantic City, NJ, as part of their 2017 program.
What that means? At least one person in the world, besides me, her mother, ‘gets’ her.
And though I didn’t create this film with an audience in mind–she mainly told me what she is and I helped make that happen–I am grateful to know that she does have an audience.
And if I were a betting woman, I’d bet she probably has more good news to come.
For now, thank you Garden State Film Festival. We’re headed to Jersey!